I Would Love to Go to ...

 The Poor House.

The Poor House is a concert venue in downtown Raleigh. I have heard numerous people talk about cool bands bands that they have seen play there.My first night here, a few friends and I went downtown to walk around & experience our new freedom. As we were walking I stopped in my tracks at this little hole in the wall venue because I heard some amazing indie music. I could see the performers inside and the huge crowd of people swaying in front of the stage. The whole place seemed very intimate and real. I've lived in Raleigh my whole life and heard about this small concert venue, always wanted to check it out. I had a great first impression.. from the outside at least. I hope to go soon! Hopefully they will have some good bands playing again.

http://www.the-pour-house.com/

Dreams

 I have been told my entire life by my worried parents " Sleep is very important, you need MORE of it" It is cool to get a sense of why this is. After watching the video, I realized how little sleep I have been getting lately. I have found myself feeling like a zombie. As I watched the french woman who was being kept awake for extended periods of time, I felt like I could identify with the way she felt. She was very slow at answering questions and her mind seemed to be in a different place. I know that lately on my way to class , I don't even feel like I am there. In class, it is very hard to concentrate. This video really made me think about the bad things I am accidentally doing to myself! My new goal is to get much more sleep. I know that without sleep, people tend to go crazy and sometimes begin to decrease in health all together. I was shocked though when they said after only five days the test rats began to die without sleep! It really shows just how important our zzzzzz's are!

Going "Home"

This weekend I am going " Home".I'm not technically going home. I've realized while being away, that home is where my family is. Home is where I feel most comfortable. I'm actually going to the beach. What a typical thing to do for Memorial day weekend right? (never realized how odd that sounds.. memorial DAY weekend.) We have had a small beach house at Emerald Isle for about seven years and it has always felt like a sort of haven. Hopefully I will have time for some much needed relaxation and reflection.

College, so far, has been fun, but I can't help but feel this creeping sense of confusion. Where are my friends from high school right now? Will these classes help me become what I want to be someday? What DO I want to become? Will I meet people that I like as much as my friends I have known for most of my life from my last school?  How am I going to eat healthy while staring at all of these delicious Meredith desserts?  ^.^

I have so many questions! I have realized though that these things will only be answered with time.

So I'm moving forward , hoping to find some answers along the way. I think I just need some time for myself, I need to eat some home-cooked food and veg out on the beach. Heres' to hoping I come back with a clear head.

Beginning Days

'I have arrived. Independence.

College is something you look toward when you are a small child and think,

College is just a dream, I'm little now. I'll never be in that big world. A big kid? I'll stay small forever.

Sitting in my dorm room now, I look around and wonder - where did all of those years go?

Never did I think I would stay in Raleigh where I have lived my entire life.

I had dreams of moving so far away from this little world where my life began.

However, I have found a lot of comfort in still being here. Familiar surroundings and the memories in this town  have kept me a bit grounded. I find myself sometimes pondering the fact that I am on my own. In the same place, but independent.Opportunities at my fingertips and my new "angel" wings.

I'm hoping this new journey will be more than my childhood imagination can fathom